“See you at school tommorrow,” I said. My date, Brian, was a
nervous mess. He wasn’t accustomed to being in this scenario.
“Oh, um, ahhh…” He sputtered. Normally, I would’ve kissed him.
But I haven’t ever kissed anyone. Not even Rick (I don’t know why). I
didn’t want to start with Brian.
“Good night.” I said and stepped inside my house and closed the
door, leaving him outside. He’d leave after awhile.
I didn’t really care about Brian, I was trying to get over my old
boyfriend Rick. Rather, my first boyfriend Rick. He broke up with me about
a month ago because “I just wasn’t where he is socially.” What a jerk.
It’s because he was going out with me that he got where he is. (I only
went out with him in the beginning because he helped me through my
mother’s death) Now, I’m not extremely popular, but if I want I can get
just about any boy (below Rick’s precious “social level”) to go out with
me. Brian for instance. Mainly it’s because of my looks. I’m rather tall
(5’10”), I have long legs but I’m not stalky, blonde, and slightly more
busty than most my classmates. Most guys say I’m “cute,” cheerleader
material, but I’m not that preppie. I think my face looks better than most
girls, and I’m pretty humble usually. My Dad says I look like Heather
Locklear. Maybe I do…..
I took off my shoes and put them by the staircase, and ran up to
the second floor. My Dad, who is a little hard-of-hearing, was sitting in
the easychair in his bedroom reading the Saturday Evening Post.
“Dad,” I said, he didn’t hear me.
“Dad!” I yelled. He looked up. “I’m home.”
“Oh, hi Julie. How was your date?”
“Fine,” I said loudly. He nodded and returned to The Post.
I turned and went up the second flight of stairs to the third
floor, which consists of my (large) room, bathroom, and landing. I love my
room. The landing has a lockable door, and I’m the only one with a key.
It’s soundproof, so I can blast music as loud as I want and have no one
can hear. I have a heated waterbed that’s the big enough for four that I
can’t live without (I just got it just yesterday, tonight will be night
#2) The bathroom is spacious and has something fun: a custom made Jacuzzi
bathtub.
The couple who lived in our house before us were a, er, romantic
couple, so had a bathtub made especially with them in mind. First, it’s
deeper than most baths. Like 3 feet. Second, it’s wide enough for two
people to bathe or do you-know-what in. Third, it has something I haven’t
told anyone but my best friend Vicki about (I’ll get to Vicki later): the
jets are positioned to stimulate the more sensitive parts of a woman’s
body. I’m lucky I’m almost exactly the same size as the lady that lived
here before, or else it wouldn’t work right. Remember, I’m a virgin and
haven’t so muched as kissed anyone, but I know that this Jacuzzi rivals
even mediocre sex. I’ve tried it more than a couple times. (Once a week I
allow a little masturbation)
There are two jets on either of sides, one under your ass, and one
in front you. The front two side jets shoot across your chest with a
strong current that makes your nipples hard. The one under your ass makes
a thick stream that goes right up and in you. The bottom two side jets and
the front one stimulate your pussy from a distance. It’s a teasing
feeling, and hard to get to turned-on by. There’s more jets for more
conventional purposes, and a detachable hose with removable shower nozzle.
I slipped out of my skirt (the long one for Brian) and my blouse.
I closed the door to the bathroom and locked it. I was looking in the
full-length mirror behind the door at my 8th grade self. At this point I
was wearing just my bra and underwear. I giggled and made a Playboy-like
pose; pushing my hair up, winking my eye half way, opening my mouth ever
so slightly, and crossing my legs… God I’m sexy. I have just enough
body-fat to be cute, and no more. Perfect curves.
It was so funny looking at a girl this way (even though it was me)
I just broke down laughing. It unsnaped the bra and kicked off the undies.
It took me a minute to get the water the right temperature, but I got it
hot enough. I slipped into the tub, and got centered over the jets. I
reached over to hit the jet switch and —
Ecstacy. For some reason I just really enjoy having something in
my ass, it’s just so pleasing. That jet was just so soothing. I let out a
soft moan. I pictured a naked stud making love to my ass, it was sooooo
good. I closed my eyes and moved my hands slowly up to my breasts,
circling to nipples with my fingers and feeling the softness of myself. I
continued to squeeze the left breast while I moved my hand down my tanned
stomach. A shudder went through my body. Even with the scalding water, I
got goosebumps. The water was flowing through my anus. I rubbed my clit
with my thumb while sticking four fingers into my pussy. I pumped my hand,
getting a rythym. The stud was fucking me from the front now.
It was very exciting, but for some reason tonight I just wasn’t
getting anywhere. I blanked my mind and just focused on the water going up
my ass. Right then something strange happened — an image flashed in my
head. A sexy 14-year-old girl in the same Playboy-like pose I had tried in
front of the mirror. She was winking at me and blowing kisses, making
provocative moves. I tried to clear it, but it wouldn’t go away. The
strangest part: it was more excting than the wildest fantasy I’d had about
a man. I climaxed almost instantly, and it was huge. I nearly hit my head.
At first I just sat there in amazement at my huge orgasm. Then in
confusion. Why had that girl turned me on so much? I was almost scared.
Usually after I climax, I just forget my fantasy and if I do remember it
it just turns me off. I remembered this girl very clearly, and what’s more
I was still turned on by her, but in a different way. Oh I was so
confused! I sat there for ten minutes with my juices floating around me.
I was still scatter-brained. I had more questions than answers.
I decided to think it over after I got cleaned up. I drained the
water out of the Jacuzzi bath, refilled it and cleaned myself for real. I
was in a complete daze. How long had I been in the tub? It seemed like
days. Soon I was done, and I got out and toweled off. I blow-dried my long
blond hair and brushed my teeth. When I was done, I turned and looked at
myself nude in the mirror again. Seeing a perfect female body made me
horny again. As aroused as I was, I was scared out of my mind. I thought I
might be sick. I had never heard of a girl liking other girls. I must be
sick.
I unlocked and opened the door and left the bathroom. I threw on a
T-Shirt and some soft shorts and got in bed, throwing the light switch on
the way. I stayed up all night wonder what was wrong with me. When I
finally did get to sleep, I had dream that I was making out with the
drummer from U2.
The next morning I woke up and felt better because of my more
normal dream. Actually, I was in denial that I ever got turned on by girl
and thought it was all a nightmare. I got ready for school and walked
slowly to the bus stop. I waited alone at the stop for awhile, and when
the bus finally came, I nearly missed it because I thought I might just
walk…
When I got on, I nodded to some of the girls I knew and went and
sat next Vicki VanDerael, my very best friend in the whole world. Vicki is
a BABE. Totally hot in every way. She has no body fat at all. She’s my
height with jet black hair and a very large bust for a 14 year old. She
has perfect thighs and a FLAT stomach. She’s just a boy magnet, a little
more than me. Vicki is the most feminine person in the world.
“Hey, Julie!” she said.
“Hi, Vic.” I said with a smile. Vicki was grinning. She had the
attention of maybe 5 guys. Vicki leaned over and whisperd in my ear.
“These boys are all over me! I think it’s my new skirt… do I
look like a slut?” Vicki was wearing a rather short skirt indeed, but not
too slutty.
“Nope,” I said. She grinned and winked.
Once at school, we did our regular classes. At lunch this stud
named Jake said “Hi” to me and I felt way better about this whole “liking
girls” nonsense. Sometimes I wish so much I could experience intercourse,
I nearly burst. Now was one of those times. I managed to get through the
day without running to the WC and masturbating. It was Friday, so Vicki
and I planned for her to come over to my house and stay the night. We were
going to watch some movies and stay up and girltalk and gossip and the
like. It was going to be fun.
On the way home, Vicki and I talked about boys, boys, boys. The
whole way. That’s all Vicki has on her mind, and I don’t care. She’s not
sex-crazed, just really digs guys a whole lot. Vicki’s great. When we got
home, we found a note from my Dad that said he had to leave on an
emergency business trip and would be back on Monday.
Vicki and I hit the books, wanting to finish our homework before
it would become a burden. We finished around five, and got some leftover
tacos to eat for dinner. Over dinner, Vicki and I talked about sex.
“So,” said Vicki, “how old are you going to be before you have
sex?”
“I would have sex now, but I don’t think anyone would want to fuck
me.” Vicki seemed to get excited at this.
“Oh, but baby!” she said, doing a lame imitation of a boy, “You’re
so sexy! I could do you right now!” I laughed. She is so funny. By now I
totally forgotton my little episode last night. Vicki went on, walking
over to me from across the table. “Oh! Oh! I’m getting hard just looking
at you!” I laughed again and stood up too. “Come’ere, babe!” she said. She
grabbed my hips and pretended to fuck me. “Oh! Oh! Oh!” I was laughing so
hard I was crying. Lately Vicki and had pretended one of was guy and
making moves on the other as a joke. It was hilarious. She stopped and
giggled. “Come’on, let’s watch the movie.”
So we did. I can’t remember which one it was, though. But during
the sex scene in the movie, I had one of those cravings for sex. Right
then, I had my idea: Vicki and I could please each other, just as an
experiment. It was the craziest thing I’d heard of. If Vicki accepted,
what if she took it for more than an experiment? What if she refused? She
wouldn’t be my friend anymore. I wanted sex so bad, it clouded my
judgement.
“Hey Vicki, how about we give each other oral sex?” I said. Vicki
laughed, and looked at me. I looked dead serious, and she looked hopeful.
It might have worked, but I chickened out.
“Just kidding!” I said. Vicki looked dissapointed, almost hurt,
but tried to cover it up. I knew it right then: Vicki wanted the same
thing. Ever since we pretended to fuck each other, we secretly hoped the
other one wasn’t joking. “Oh, god,” I thought, “I might actually have sex
tonight.” I had wanted it my whole life. Actually going one-on-one with
another living, feeling, loving person. We knew each other well enough. We
both wanted it, and besides, I don’t think we go so far as to stop liking
boys altogether. It was just for pleasure, not love.
Right then, I thought I was the only girl to ever dream this up,
and that Vicki just happened to know me and want it too.
“Vicki,” I said uneasily, turning off the TV, “let’s go upstairs,
I want to ask you something.” Vicki looked hopeful again. I think she
could feel what I was going to ask coming.
“Okay…” she said. Suddenly right then I wanted to hold her hand.
I reached over and grasped it as I stood up, and pulled her up. She didn’t
try to let go. We stared into each other’s eyes. It was so confusing,
exciting, scary, and romantic at the same time. I broke the spell and led
her upstairs. In my room, I sat her down on my bed beside me.
“Oh, god,” I said, “I don’t know how to ask this, um… Well, you
know how much I have wanted to have sex.”
“Yes,” said Vicki sounding as anxious as I felt, “I feel the need
also.” My heart fluttered. I reached out and put my hands on hers. She
smiled.
“Okay,” I said, letting out a deep breath. “Well, I was thinking;
since we both want sex so much, we could, well, experiment on each other
and we could, well………” I trailed off. She nodded.
“It’s a good idea, I think, um…” said Vicki, “and it would be
just for the sake of pleasure, not for anything else.”
“Yeah!” I said, really excited. She knew exactly what I was
talking about.
“Julie,” she said, “I’ve wanted this ever since last year. I got
these urges — well, you know what I’m talking about. I could never get
the nerve up to ask you. I didn’t know if you wanted it or not. That’s why
I’ve been kinda of playing with you, just to see how you react. But this
is still just an experiment, you know? Just to see what it feels like…”
“Right,” I said. Now I didn’t know what to do. I was shivering all
over, but not cold shivers, hot ones. I was just quivering with excitment.
Luckily, Vicki seemed to have this all planned out. She pushed me back on
my bed, slowly and carefully.
“Are you ready?” she asked. I could only nod.
Vicki had me laid all the way back on the bed, and she lied down
on top of me. Oh, god. It felt so intense. I could feel her soft breath on
my neck and face. She moaned a little, and I spread my legs a little so
she could get in between them. Vicki moved down my body a few inches, then
pulled my blouse over my head. She looked up at me and grinned, then
pushed her hands underneath me and undid my bra. My breasts bounced free.
I was overcome by a wave of ecstacy, and reluctence. I was just now I
realized I was really going to fuck another person, and not only that, a
woman.
“Are.. you.. sure.. we.. should.. do this?” I said between
breaths. Vicki answered by putting her mouth over on my nipples. My cheast
heaved with excitment. I couldn’t help a moan. She sucked the whole top of
my breast and tounged my nipple without removing her mouth. She kept
sucking and licking and tounging… my nipples were rock hard. She finally
removed her lips and dragged her toungue across my breast to the other
one, where she did the same thing. I was getting so horny, I had never
imagined sex being this good! I grabbed her ass and pulled it up me. This
gave Vicki an idea. She dropped her pants, and removed her panties
beneath, revealing the most beautiful shaved pussy I have seen in my
entire life, dripping wet. She removed the rest of my clothes, and got on
top of me again. She thrust her hips in and out like a man, rubbing her
clit against mine. It felt so good, I forgot where I was. She kept pussy
grinding me while a grabbed her ass and rubbed her harder against me.
Before long, she came all over between my legs. The gush of fluid
made me climax as well, multiple times. She kept grinding a little, then
slowed down to stop, collapsing onto me. I was lost in pleasure, even
after my orgasm I was feeling like it was still going.
“OooOooOooOooOoo,” I moaned. Both of our bodies went completely
lax. I was swimming in ecstacy. My whole body was tense and at peace at
the same time. I was flying… the only feeling I could compare this to
was the descriptions of the acid trips in “The Electric Kool-Aid Acid
Test.” I didn’t even feel those either. It was the best fuck I’ve had.
Ever, even to this day, that first one with Vicki was the best.
Vicki made a “mmmmmmmmmmmm” sound. She was lying with her hips in
between my thighs, our breasts pressing against one another, her arms out
to the sides crossing over mine, and her head on my shoulder. It was a
good feeling to have Vicki there so close to me. It wasn’t exactly sexual,
more of a safe, happy, romantic even feeling. It was the aftermath
feeling.
I managed to crane my neck up to kiss her on the cheek.
“Do you realize what we just did, Vicki?” I asked. She just kinda
of made an “Uh-huh” sound and said,
“That was great.” Better than any experiment, but what I kept
telling myself was that this was just an experiment, and that we weren’t
weird social misfits. Vicki lifted herself up on one elbow and then
rolled over onto her back, groaning as she did so.
No we were lying side-by-side on my waterbed, with our arms around
our shoulders. I curled my leg around Vicki’s, and rubbed it up and down a
little bit. Vicki smiled and closed her eyes.
“Vicki, you know what I fantasize most about?”
“What’s that?”
“Well, most people fantasize about having sex with someone, and
having it be really wild and stuff. I do that when I’m finger-banging
myself, but I have day-dreams of something else.” I stopped for a moment
while I turned turned on my side and curled up a little in Vicki’s arms,
which were around me know. She felt so warm, and close and loving… I
reached my hand up to trace the outline of her lips with finger-tips. She
let me do it. I gently pressed between them and Vicki sucked the tip and
ever so lightly. I giggled softly and removed my now moist finger. I put
my hand on her breast and and she took in a sharp gasp. I started tracing
my finger around her nipple and continued while she moaned in pleasure
under her breath.
“Anyway, my fantasies have do with just being in bed with someone
and having them hold you…” I sighed happily, my fantasy was coming true,
“and just lying there with them all-night in a half-asleep state,
cuddling.”
“I like it,” she said.
“Mmmmmmm. Let’s not get wild, just stay here in bed and caress
each other.”
“Okay……………………” said Vicki, trailing off. I pulled
up the covers over our beautiful naked bodies and cuddled up next to
Vicki, who did the same to me. I was all hot from the heavy blanket and
Vicki right next to me, but I had goose-bumps anyway. It was just as good
as the sex. But it was still just an experiment, right? I was so confused,
so happy, and so ashamed. But why? There were so many questions. I didn’t
love Vicki, that was set, but I did admire her so much… “my lover can
help me answer my questions” I thought. And was just then I relized; I
wasn’t a virgin anymore, I had a lover I didn’t really love, and it was a
girl. I drifted off to sleep feeling a little bit of myself melt inside,
and another part awaken.
* * *
When I did wake up in Vicki’s arms, she was still asleep. Daylight
poured through my open windows and spilled out onto the floor and over the
walls. I sighed. I was just going to stay right there in Vicki’s arms
forver… I reached over and massaged her breasts softly. I could hear her
purring almost.
“Hey, Julie.” she said sleepily, and squeezed me. Oh, it felt
good. She had totally enclosed me in her.
“What are we Vicki?” I said. I didn’t mean to sound sharp, but I
think that’s how it came out. Vicki loosened her grip. I didn’t like that.
“Well,” she said, “we’re just experimenting with sex, you know.”
“Yes, but what if you were my boyfriend? Or girlfriend, I guess.”
“Women that love women are called lesbians, Julie.” It’s the first
I’d ever heard that word. It sounded natural.
“Are we lesbians?” I asked.
“Well, no. Not exactly. You still like boys, right? Yeah, and we
don’t love each other like that, we just please each other sexually. So
the answer is no.”
“I guess.” I said.
“Actually, Julie, I have a confession to make.” She sounded unsure
of herself. “I am a lesbian, and have loved you since we met.” I was
shocked. All this time, and I had never known. She continued. “Julie, I
didn’t think you even knew what a lesbian was, so I kept my feelings to
myself and surrounded myself with boys. I just denied it. But just
recently, I have fully realized I can only love women.”
“Vicki — I…” I didn’t what to say. “I wish I could feel the
same, but I just don’t know, it’s all so new.”
“I know, I know. Let’s just lay together for awhile.” And we did.
I thought about boys. I thought abou them long and hard — a full two
hours while we lay in silence massaging each other lightly. I thought
about love, marrige, sex, everything. I thought about kissing, and when I
did, I knew I had never kissed a boy. It wasn’t right. It just didn’t feel
right. It just slapped me in the face, that thought. It hit me when I was
down. But it was good for me, I knew that maybe I still liked boys a
little, but I loved Vicki. I must have for some time.
“Vicki.” I addressed her. She looked over at me, somewhat sad. Her
eyes were watery. She had been crying silently. “Oh, Vicki.” I said, and
hugged her tight enough to squeeze the sad out of her. I pulled down the
covers a little. It was cold outside, and cold in the house. But Vicki was
warm.
I got up and kneeled over her pelvis, in the same posistion we had
been in last night, when she fucked me. But now wasn’t the time for sex. I
bent down and got face-to-face, lying on top of her. I streched my legs
out down hers and she shivered. I put my arms around her neck and looked
into her moist green eyes, just inches away.
“I love you, Vicki.” I wispered softly. She smiled. “Kiss me.” I
said, and meant it. I wanted to seal my love with the most sacred of
things I knew — the kiss. I closed my eyes and pressed my lips against
hers. She made that purring sound again. I opened my mouth a little and
pushed tongue in past her teeth. She pressed forward hard, getting my
tongue as far down her throat as she could. She massaged it with her
tongue and sucked on it lightly. I could taste her, and she tasted better
that anything I had ever tasted, ever. I pulled my tongue back and sucked
hers into my mouth, doing the same thing. After a while, she pulled it
back in and we sucked on each others lips, finsihing the kiss off. When I
removed my lips finally, she exhaled hard.
“Oh, god I love you.” she said.